Thank you, Claire.

So you failed. Alright you really failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You think I care about that? I do understand. You wanna be really great? Then have the courage to fail big and stick around. Make them wonder why you're still smiling. 

EGLS

The song is right: Everybody gotta learn sometimes. But the song forgot about to say how you learn. Some people learn fast, easy, in a soft way. Other people, take a lot of time to learn, they had to have their heart broke into little pieces more than one time to see how the things are and then when that happens you don't have a choice, you just have to take the pieces by yourself cause when this shit happens, believe-me you will by yourself cause maybe, jut maybe this is the only way for you to learn. While you are taking the little pieces of the ground you are thinking, you are figuring out how that happened, how YOU let this happened? And you start to think "it's not my fault!" how you always do and this lie sounds wonderful, but somehow this excuse it's not working anymore, not even for you. So you just have to accept the fact that yes, you fail, and yes it hurts, it sucks cause nobody likes to fail, nobody likes to recognize that, but... Guess what? It's just the way it is! Fuck it if it hurts, nobody gives a damn. It's the truth and you can't just runway for it, not this time. You are stuck with you fucking mistake and you will have to learn how to deal with. Or maybe, just maybe you just have to learn how to deal with yourself. Cause you see... Everybody gotta learn sometimes.

Ocio

Converso comigo mesma, fico fazendo careta na frente do espelho, leio um pouco, assisto friends, ando pela casa, proucuro comida, entro no orkut pra ver se o Mauricio esta la, escuto uns barulhos up stares, volto pra tv, volto pro livro, mais uma cerveja, nenhum cigarro porque eu tive a pessima ideia de parar. Penso, penso, penso... tempo, tempo, tempo, tempo.