Valentine's Day

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Do it, do it, do it

Tô doida pra me meter em encrenca de novo. Afinal de contas que graça tem a vida se não nas encrencas que a gente se mete? Que graça tem viver a vida sem esse frio na barriga? Sem essa expectativa? Sem essa duvida? Sem esse gostinho de perigo na boca? Eu preciso viver no perigo, nas alturas, nas dúvidas, nos erros, na vontade, no desafio, eu não funciono sem isso. Então, tá errado? Deve estar, não costumo fazer as coisas certas mesmo. Mas e dai? Give me one good reason. Sempre tive medo de me tornar essa pessoa sem nada a perder, sempre achei que esse era o tipo de pessoa mais perigoso mas agora me vejo casa vez mais chegando perto disso. Toda vez que o resto do meu consciente diz "não faz isso" eu respondo "porque?". Porque não? Porque é errado? Quem disse que é errado? E se é errado, o que que tem? O que eu não abro e nem vou abrir mão é disso, é de levar essa vida bandida, de responder perguntas com mais perguntas, de jogar uns olhares duvidosos, de rasgar sorrisos, de me arriscar, de entrar no carro de quem eu não deveria, e de fazer coisas que eu não deveria. Opa, escapou. Mas eu também gosto de falar o que eu não deveria. Afinal de contas, o que não me mata, me fortalece.

you oughta know!

I want you to know

That I'm happy for you

I wish nothing but

The best for you both

An older version of me

Is she perverted like me?

Would she go down on you in a theater?

Does she speak eloquently?

And would she have your baby?

I'm sure she'd make a really excellent mother

'Cause the love that you gave, that we made

Wasn't able to make it enough

For you to be open wide, no

And every time you speak her name

Does she know how you told me you'd hold me

Until you died? 'Til you died?

But you're still alive

And I'm here to remind you

Of the mess you left when you went away

It's not fair to deny me

Of the cross I bear that you gave to me

You, you, you oughta know

You seem very well

Things look peaceful

I'm not quite as well

I thought you should know

Did you forget about me, Mr. Duplicity?

I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner

But it was a slap in the face

How quickly I was replaced

And are you thinking of me when you fuck her?

'Cause the love that you gave, that we made

Wasn't able to make it enough

For you to be open wide, no

And every time you speak her name

Does she know how you told me you'd hold me

Until you died? 'Til you died?

But you're still alive

And I'm here to remind you

Of the mess you left when you went away

It's not fair to deny me

Of the cross I bear that you gave to me

You, you, you oughta know

'Cause the joke that you laid in the bed

That was me, and I'm not going to fade as soon

As you close your eyes, and you know it

And everytime I scratch my nails

Down someone else's back, I hope you feel it

Well, can you feel it?

Well, I'm here to remind you

Of the mess you left when you went away

It's not fair to deny me

Of the cross I bear that you gave to me

You, you, you oughta know

I'm here to remind you

Of the mess you left when you went away

It's not fair to deny me

Of the cross I bear that you gave to me

You, you, you oughta know

Olá?

Alô, oi, só queria informar para quem ainda não sabe que eu não sou descartável, ok? obrigada.

#aloka

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R: NÃO, NÃO TÁ TUDO BEM. EU PERDI O AMOR DA MINHA VIDA.